The Recovery

I know many struggle with the word "WAIT", because I am one of them. Being patient for something has never been a strong point for me. To be very honest I have despised that word most of my life. However, after the journeys that I have been on; today I understand the word "WAIT" very clearly now. I struggled with the "HOW", and "WHY" as well, but the emotional trauma for me was by far the worst, and I just wanted the CREATOR to make that all go away.

Well, today I can say that the CREATOR didn't make it go away, but HE did heal every wound that was there. When you have deep wounds, it takes time to heal and recuperate from it. My heart had to come to a place of really wanting that healing and the CREATOR waited patiently with me till I was ready. The CREATOR is patiently waiting with you too. Many years ago, I was told that everything that was stolen from me would be restored back to me. I always looked at it from a material point of view, (even though that is coming) but what has been restored is much greater than material things. My original blueprint of who I am has been restored, my joy has been restored, my peace of mind has been restored, and most of all the understanding of what unconditional love is has been restored.

I share this with you to bring hope to your soul that everything can be restored to you as well. Just the other week a very close friend of mine said "you are definitely coming to the end of the tunnel and will see light again real soon!" Little did she know while hiking in the Great Smoky Mountains of Tennesse last fall, I took this picture because of how beautiful the colors were and saw a tunnel in the trees; I guess it was what I needed to see at that time. The CREATOR will not only use HIS creation to heal you, but HE will use it to remind you of just how much HE loves you. Yes, I am still waiting for certain things, but I know that HIS "TIMING" makes everything beautiful just as HIS creation is. So even though it can be very hard in the waiting season of your journey, and you may want to give up- DON'T! There is a light at the end of your tunnel, and ALL will be RECOVERED and it will definitely be worth the wait.

Until next time,

THE CREATOR LOVES YOU! ❤️

Accepting You

Most people today as we see have a hard time accepting themselves even though they believe they do. I was definitely one of those people. In 2000, there was a precious man who stood in front of me and said, " I saw a razor at a wrist, it starts with opinions, that says I'd rather be dead than to face what I'm facing." He then spoke to the spirit of death and suicide and said, "you leave that young lady alone!"

I spent most of my life having such a low self- esteem that throughout certain journeys I just did not have the strength to go on. I always saw myself through people's eyes and their opinions that I never really saw myself. No this is not a pity party, but truly a journey of freedom. After going through a deep healing with the CREATOR each day I learn to love myself more than the day before (it is very healthy for you to love yourself), and I need to love me, because the CREATOR loves me. My heart was to never intentionally hurt anyone, but the truth is I was hurting myself all along.

No one's journey in life will be perfect, and the CREATOR never expects you to be perfect. HE just wants a relationship with you, and HE wants you to see you the way HE sees you. Forgiven, chosen, beautiful, strong, rescued, wanted, unique, and most importantly LOVED. I chose to share a specific picture with you because before my healing I was broken, shattered, lost and emotionally bent over. After my healing I am now FORGIVEN, FREE, JOYFUL, A BEAUTIFUL SURVIVOR, and most of all I AM LOVED. Today I stand tall even though I am only 4' 10". I can now see truth! I see what the CREATOR sees, and if you will allow HIM to heal your soul you will be able to see HIS beautiful creation too, and that's YOU!

The only opinion that really matters is the opinion of the CREATOR and yours. You are HIS handcrafted masterpiece. So, each day wake up knowing you are LOVED just as you are. There is so much to live for, and if I can survive with the help of the CREATOR; you can survive too!

Until next time,

THE CREATOR LOVES YOU! ❤️

HE Makes It So Personal

As I shared with you last week about letting go; one of the things that I had to really let go of was the betrayal that happened to me as a teenager. Only a few know about that betrayal, and it took me until this past January to face it. There was a certain person in my life that exposed himself to me( the 2nd violation of my childhood), and from that very second it distorted my view of a man. I buried that night out of fear and struggled with my eyesight while looking at men from that moment on.

One night in February while preparing for our trip to the Rockies; I stopped to look at my phone and this movie from a TV show that played in the early 90's popped up. It was called "Little Girl Lost" and it was based on a true story. It was about a little foster girl who had been molested by her biological father. As I stopped to rewatch it the Creator said, "pay attention to her name." Well, her nickname was BEANS. Growing up my nickname was BEANIE. As my heart began to feel overwhelmed, and the tears began to fall; I chose in that moment to verbally say that "I truly forgive him." (I said his name out loud) I then asked the Creator to heal my eyesight and to help me to never struggle with that again.

A few days later we then made our way to the Rockies and spent a day in Hidden Valley snow sledding. I got down to the bottom of the hill, and just laid there. I watched as the snow blew over me and knew at that moment the Creator had just sealed my past. My healing was now complete, and the scars were now removed. All shame is now gone!

No matter what you may have endured on your journey; the Creator will heal you if you let HIM. HE will go to the depth of that wound to cleanse and restore you. HE is the great healer! HE will seal your past, remove your scars, and remove all of the shame in your life just as HE did with me. Now I would like to share a song with you as an example of just how personal HE will make it with you because HE loves you so much. Your healing will be the most memorable moment of your life. Remember the greatest words ever spoken to your soul are the ones that come from the Creator.

Until next time,

THE CREATOR LOVES YOU! ❤️

https://youtu.be/hf5KRfbDnx0?si=pUsxSUeRtOstqmSW